Everything is so confusing, time is going so fast and I had no idea in which direction to go to. We came across each other’s paths and you were there with a good head on your shoulders and so much to offer, and then there I was. Confused, lost, and flowing with an abundance of emotions. I don’t know where to start with you, it all happened so fast. I guess it all happened when we were talking about the future and how you without knowing taught me how to let go and just have fun. To follow my heart no matter what was in the way. You always point out things I do, just the other day you told me how you noticed whenever I’m stressed out I put my hair in a knot and twirl it around my fingers until I’m calm.
You know exactly what to say whenever I’m freaking out about something which is 98 percent of the time. You’ve made me realize how badly I was being treated, and you just stick by me, which is dangerous. You say you can’t seem to figure me out, but honestly I can’t even figure you out. You’re so full of wonder and mystery, it’s a bit intriguing. But what’s even worse is that you say you love the things most people hate and by most people I mean just one person. You love the way I squeak whenever I see something funny, the way I laugh, and even the weird stuff that comes out of my mouth.
You’re excited to be living with me and tell me all the time that we’re going to be there for each other all the time. Which is so new to me, I’m not sure what to think really because you’re so weird. In a good way, of course. You know me better than I thought you did which is terrifying considering I really don’t like opening up to anybody, not even my mother. I was perfectly fine hiding behind the brick wall I had built long ago, and you were perfectly fine just inviting yourself in and then I thought “I could have said no”. But I let you in anyway, and you sat there listening to everything I had to say about anything. And just like that we became what we are, best friends I guess?
Things end all the time, nothing is forever, and nothing is ever written in stone unless you were around during the stone-age or casted in the Flintstones. And I’m okay with things ending because if there’s anything you’ve taught me without knowing is in order to love someone you must love yourself first, no matter what. I just wish I could have seen that earlier. Some people come into our lives to help us grow, to love, or to help us move on. And I’ve been so happy since you’ve been around.
Everything happens for a reason and we all have choices. I could have said no when you held my hand, I could have said no when you held me, I could have said no when you put your arm around me, I could have said no, but I didn’t. And it’s comforting to have someone like you around, I noticed that I’m breaking out of my bad habits. I’ve been laughing a lot more, smiling a lot more, and just feeling okay again. And I can’t wrap my head around it and I’m sure you can’t either. I guess all I can say now is thank you for being a friend to me, thank you for everything. “ The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched-they must be felt with the heart” -Helen Keller
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